Wednesday, January 09, 2008
adversities of life.
i hate being sick. spent the whole day at the hospital today. they did more scans which brings the total number of scans to 3. have to go for more blood tests also. very pain!!! ='( rain and za, i guess i'm in the same boat as ya'll. i feel so guilty of wasting my parents' hard-earned money. furthermore, i'm feeling really left out in terms of my studies. i have really no idea whats going on in math coz i haven't gone to a single math tutorial since school began. really hate feeling this way. why are these things happening to us? we didn't do anything! i'm scared. ='(
7:59 PM
Monday, November 26, 2007
Famous Last Words
My favourite 2 days of the year has finally arrived again! yup. this is the reason why i loveeee november!
first of all,
HAPPYHAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAZU!!!!! don't worry everything's gonna be better for ya this year! let's go buy 4D on the 28th hahahaha! (omg that's kau-shit-gun's birthday! HAHAHAHAHA!) =P
feeling abit down though. this is the last day i'm gonna be seventeen. i don't really wanna grow up. i'm not done running around and playing all day! turning 18 is a special occasion. a milestone in one's life. it sort of marks the beginning of partial adulthood. oh no...the responsibilities that turning 18 entails is scaring me. but some fun awaits, like going to a bar and trying out different drinks. in retrospect, although it had its fair share of ups and downs, thanks to all my friends for making my 17th year on this earth nevertheless enjoyable and now as it draws to a close, let's still have more fun! hahahahha!
i wanna spend today doing something nice and constructive. =)
also looking forward to class chalet tomorrow. i'm really dying of boredom.
Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZAAAA!!! 26+27=<3 november babies ROCK!
whereareyou???
9:05 PM
Saturday, November 24, 2007
stuck on the same song.
i'm so pissed. this always happens. i'm just so tired of it. he drinks, he smokes, he coughs, he refuses to sleep, he yells, he nags then he falls asleep in the restaurant and everything spills. it sucks. =(
dinner at sakae sushi with the parents.
time to tune in to radio delight! hopefully it can cheer me up.
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
10:53 PM
Rush Hourrrrr
dang i'm gonna be busy the whole of next week. but no complains coz i'd rather be busy than dying of boredom at home. the thing that scares me is that the movers are gonna be moving the stuff from my condo over to our house and as it is, my house is already in such a mess. i think if the furniture comes we won't have space to even walk. yikes! i need to clear up more. why do my parents keep insisting to keep some of the stuff? they're being unreasonable coz we'll be having double of everything. might as well book a warehouse space or something. i don't think my parents would even have the time to clear up and make space. it's just all talk and no action. sometimes it seems like i'm the only one who clears up around here. oh well...
11:58 AM
Thursday, November 22, 2007
there's something out there...
great! new skin up! hopefully it will inspire me to crap more and get this blog's up and running again. suddenly i miss blogger. i'm so damn fickle i think i'll just have to switch between my blogs from time to time. dad's just left for work so i guess i'll be dying of boredom at home again. shall try to get some work done while this silence lasts.
5:24 PM
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
HAHAHA! oh my it's been a lonngggg time since i blogged here! i think it needs a skin change. ok shall get to it now.
12:01 PM
Friday, June 01, 2007
after being on hiatus for a few weeks i'm updating thanks to abbs! hahahaha. the holidays have started but for the first time in history i'm kind of indifferent to it although i'm really happy that i finally have time to play with my plug-in baby, razor! <3 so let me talk about the more eventful days. had maths fuckulty test on the last thursday before school closed and physics fuckulty test the next day and for the first time in my whole jc life i actually felt good and accomplished and was able to smile after the paper. runway was cool and funny! there was this totally weird teacher who modelled and acted seductive and kept blowing glittery stuff around. ewww!! hahahahhaha! after that went for dinner at simpang with abbs and clareee! first time drinking milo dinosaur. hahahaha damn nice! abbs made friends with the stall owners and we were about to leave her there in her stoned daze. LOL!
guitar concert on saturday was fun too! good job zhihan, jean, alea and jon! saw maddie, jasmine and denise there too! and also jinbo and szeling! damn funny la!
went to eat fish and co with my parents on monday. gotta love the passionfruit drink! had lunch at pizza hut on tuesday and now i'm very broke.
plaisir de chanson 07 on wednesday was great! all the changing room madness. i wish more people came but i'm really thankful to mum and clare who came down to support. my mum apparently went to eat at the VIP reception during the intermission!! OMG!! hahaahahahha! hope to get the pictures up soon!
was waken up by a call on vesak from abigail foo jingying! went to the airport to meet her, yiyang(& friend), salleh(& friends including jinbo) and the egg who came later. quite cool we were like one huge gang there. i was being a good girl and studying until someone pressured and influenced me to stop. hahahahahahhahaaha! salleh and i tried to compose a song. abbs was satisfying her addiction and kept playing bridge (which i still suck at). i seriously think my success in bridge highly dependent on the fengshui of the place. abbs and i shared bacardi breezer! <3 we went for dinner at the staff canteen where i met my parents coz i was broke then continued with bridge and camwhoring till we went home. airporting is so much fun! let's go again!!!! =
oh yeah and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!!!!!! MAY YOU HAVE A WONDERFUL 18! hope your enjoying your celebrations there girl!
5:46 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
painful. overdose. die. it's spiralled out of control. i see no point in living. need a new start yet i can't turn the page. i cannot forget. why does life keep doing this to me? don't know if i'll be able to survive this- again and again and AGAIN!
guitar concert tonight. although i really have no mood at all. but for the sake of alea, jean and zhihan and meeting up with the sacians, maddie, jasmine and denise! i'm gonna drag myself there.
what now?
I couldn't tell you
Why she felt that way
She felt it everyday
And I couldn't help her
I just watched her make
The same mistakes again
What's wrong, what's wrong now
Too many, too many problems
Don't know where she belongs
Where she belongs
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
Was no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
Open your eyes
And look outside
Find the reasons why
You've been rejected
And now you can't find
What you left behind
Be strong, be strong now
Too many too many problems
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
Was no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
Her feeling she hides
Her dream she can't find
She's losing her mind
She's fallen behind
She can't find her place
She's losing her faith
She's fallen from grace
She's all over the place
She wants to go home but nobody's home
That's where she lies broken inside
Was no place to go, no place to go
To dry her eyes broken inside
She's lost inside, lost inside
6:00 PM
